Thoughts and Journal Entries

June 2, 2010

Does my faith defy logic? Faith is excruciating, sometimes illogical, and always right! Chris Tiegreen. . . Sometimes, no, with Krissie we have had to, all the time, have faith in Jesus that He has everything under control and He is being glorified by our walk. Real faith has to be more important, or outweigh our emotional comfort, our logic and our understanding. The object of our faith is the most important! Lord, increase my faith! Once again, I am reminded of “be careful what you pray for.” You might get it. That’s ok. What He has begun, He will perform!

July 21, 2010

The beauty of God’s creation can bring you into His presence and makes you fall at His feet but it’s the suffering and trials of life that keep you there. God’s beauty in creation is everywhere. The ‘awesomeness’ of God is apparent in our daily walk. To trust in Him as you enjoy His beauty as reflected in His creation is not hard to do. But to have faith and trust in Him when your heart is breaking; to rest in peace and comfort when part of your world of life is slipping away, that kind of communion is different. More lasting. More needful for Christians of today. More precious for me. I don’t seek out or relish going through trials or suffering. I want to live joyously through them and glorify God through them. Bring others to the knowledge of a kind and sovereign God. It would be wonderful if we had a life of no sorrows or pain, plenty of material blessings and a strong walk with God. But that usually doesn’t happen. This world isn’t our home. Live for eternity. Not the short term!

October 6, 2010

It is important to realize and remember that suffering isn’t about us. Our suffering is for the world. It is for others to see our response to those things that happen in our life. To see the peace Jesus can give. To see an eternal perspective in the situation. How we handle suffering is vital to the Kingdom. Avoid self absorption. Let people see eternity in your eyes!. . . Chris Tiegreen

December 13, 2013

When Krissie was born we knew that she was given to us by God and we were satisfied and loved her with all our hearts. After the Down Syndrome diagnosis she had horrific seizures....hospital stays.... Invasive surgeries....autism... And on and on.... When things like these happen my thought pattern ran along the lines of words trials, hard times, the difficult road to travel. Whatever words come to mind. In my Mommas heart, and as I looked at my innocent little girl, in the eyes, through those first years, I realized that I didn't want to put Krissie in those categories! Or Equate her with those words! ALL my girls were a blessing! And she is too! Early on I tried to focus on the fact that anything that brings you to Gods feet, must be a blessing. There is no better place to be than to rest in His sovereignty, mercy and grace and be ready to glorify Him in every situation! Difficult and heart wrenching? Yes! But , I guess that's where faith comes in...I'm very glad that in our weakness He is strong!

April 29, 2013

Just reading Spurgeon and He talked about how much Jesus loves us. Thinking back on my life having Kristol and so thankful that The Lord had me on His heart and had such precious thoughts concerning me! How not only am I washed in His blood, I am justified, sanctified and going to spend eternity with him! He has assured me of His salvation! But during Krissies life , he kept me able to care for her, protect her! He gave me strength, peace, long suffering, joy and till the very end He had my Mommas heart on His mind! For I was able to sing Her into eternity in my arms! He allowed me to have April help plan her homegoing and my wonderful parents and sister pay for the whole thing. He gave 5 years to dwell on and whisper in my heart how he wanted the funeral to be like! He does love his children! He is so very caring and gracious toward us, his children! Thank you Jesus for not only doing everything for my eternal security, but for the small things that matter to my heart! I love you and praise you!! Spurgeon said: There is no part of His people's interests which He does not consider, and there is nothing which concerns their welfare which is not important to Him! So very true! So very glad!